The Unmitigated Gall

Heading into 2020, there's a few things concerning my experience at that so-called synagogue that I want to get off my chest. I planned on writing this months ago, but they were other matters that came up. As I mentioned in my "Poking the Bear" post, I want to address what made me start to gradually look at their "leader" Henry differently in 2015. Looking back, I realize this dude is a feminine ass bitch, masking in masculinity.

It started with a brother's meeting that year. Henry was asking some of the brothers about marriage. Speaking of which, that's another reason I'm glad to no longer be there, he was one of those negroes trying to brow beat and pressure people into getting married, but then in the same breath, tell them not to rush into a marriage. Go figure.

Anyway, marriage is not anything I'm interested in right now. I'm on the fence at best about that subject, so shaming tactics such as claiming one's trying to avoid responsibility-- which one fake, four-eyed bitch was quick to repeat; she repeated everything that nigger said-- or whatever other goofy shit was not going to change my mind.

Then the subject of what we look for in a woman came up. Long story short, I simply said what I look for a woman is someone who is attractive inwardly and on the outside, I NEVER SAID she had to be a beauty queen. Somehow, I wasn't "being practical" according to him. Till this day, I don't see where I was being impractical. Anyone in their right mind would want someone with a balance of (at least) decent looks and good inner characteristics. I have no problem with a woman who would expect the same from me, and move on if she didn't see that, but the negro was implying that I was being one-sided. No, I wasn't, dumb shit.

He then goes in on my looks. This wasn't the first time he did that, and to me, a man judging another man's looks, especially in the same manner as a woman is highly suspect. Why the fuck he was so concerned about my looks was beyond me. Then he points out a dude in the meeting, saying this guy can get a "beautiful woman." Very wise. This man's supposed to be a preacher, but he's doing instigating bullshit like this.

I figured the dude he singled out would view himself as better at that point. He was empty-headed enough to do it; I can tell because his attitude towards me changed after that meeting. Besides, even if he can get an attractive woman, I doubt if he could keep her. That dude had the IQ of fertilizer.

Then I was asked to name a woman that I find attractive. Looking back, I realized it was a paradox trap; in other words, regardless of what answer I gave, it would've been the wrong answer. However, when people are asked this question, they usually will use a celebrity as a mere example, which is what I simply did. Most people will not mention someone they know personally. This motherfucker took what I said to imply that I wanted this celebrity-- I won't mention her name-- or someone of that caliber, and dragged me for three fucking years about that shit like a messy bitch.

During this feast, I had a few conversations with a woman who makes Lizzo look like Jessica Alba. One thing I've learned about "black" people is that collectively, they're very childish and petty, and a lot of these yardbirds were no different. Just because a man is having a conversation with a woman doesn't mean he's interested in a fucking relationship.

Knowing that I was dealing with mostly childish people, and the fact that this woman was desperate for a relationship, I started keeping my distance but to no avail, because my concerns came to pass. Next thing I knew, I'm getting text messages such as one from a loud mouth coon about her being my woman. I had to correct him on that. He tells me, "You heard what preacher said." No motherfucker, you heard what I said, that's not my woman. I never co-signed that shit.

I figured this bitch was going to try to use Henry's position to trap me into something with her, and she proved me right.She thought she was smarter than me, and she viewed me as weak, which she wasn't the only one but I have way more resolve than people think. I saw her bullshit coming a mile away, and there was no way that shit was going to happen.

One would think that common logic and sense would tell someone if they have to go through that subterfuge to try to get someone, you don't need that person, nor should you want a relationship with that person, but oh well.

When I set the record straight that wasn't the case, I prepared for the inevitable. I know the negro, and whenever they call themselves hooking you up with someone or low-key trying to force someone on you, and you refuse, here comes the shaming language, and Henry didn't disappoint. Like a typical negro, he goes in on my looks (again) during a single's meeting on October of that year.

As I've said before, I saw this coming and I braced myself. This bitch nigger got mad because I refused to take someone he called himself picking for me, when I never asked to be with her in the first fucking place, that was his bright ass idea. He took it upon himself to do that goofy shit. Of course, this would be denied, but I know that's what it was because I had folded and took the chocolate covered Jabba the Hut, it wouldn't have been none of that bullshit.

This told me a lot about what he thought of me and the type of person he really is. He could hurl vitriol and call me ugly all he wants, I still wasn't taking that motherfucker! It was my way of telling him "fuck you" without actually telling him that. I also think part of it was to get a laugh. Try to get me to "take one for the team," launch personal attacks when I refuse, then throw the whole ordeal in my face later, making jokes about the shit.

By the way, Henry, you'll eat a chair before I get an attractive woman? Get the seasoning salt, motherfucker. You don't know me as well as you think you do. You don't know what woman I can or can't get. You made the same mistake most dumb fucks make, and that's look at me and assume stuff.

This also expands into the so-called black community. Somehow, regardless how the woman looks, her size, her attitude or her personality, she can have the pick of the litter and it's okay for her to have standards, but it's a problem when brothers have standards. He's supposed to take whoever he can get, otherwise, be subjected to shaming language. Oh well, I guess we have a problem, then. This ridiculous, hypocritical shit is expected by most sisters in our race, but you have some of these male negroes doing the same thing.

This brings me to the picture in this post. I won't mention the broad's name, but the image should give one an idea of her name. A year later, some of the brothers and sisters had a meaningless discussion by the sound system in the sanctuary. This Shrek looking broad goes on a disgruntled rant, talking about brothers who didn't want the wildebeest I mentioned, then talks about how brothers don't have this and that, but they want this and that. Typical shaming language. Some brothers have to hear about what they have or don't have because they don't want somebody. Fuck you, bitch! You and anybody who's on that bullshit.

Then she uses one dude and whoever those "few" were to try to piss on the other brothers. I'm looking at this cunt, thinking: "Whether I was Warren Buffet or someone on the streets, I still wouldn't look your way." It's usually warth hogs like her who looks like that and have the nerve to talk shit.

Repost: Ballin' For Attention: My Take on the Ayesha Curry Interview

Ayesha Curry. Photo by Edmondson/ USA Today Sports Images.

 Reposted from 5/9/19.

During a recent interview, Ayesha Curry expressed— I’m paraphrasing here— that she’s not getting enough attention from men these days. Well, she got what she wanted. Apparently, she’s been getting verbally lit up on social media and I know for a fact several brothers have made YouTube videos concerning this matter because every time I go to my YT page, I see a thumbnail for a video covering the story.

Mind you, she’s the wife of Stephen Curry, an NBA superstar with multiple NBA championships and is considered one of the best players in the league, so I have to admit, this puts a hole in the argument of men who says it’s all about MLS (Money, Looks and Status) when trying to get a woman. Granted, these things are a factor, but they're not the be-all, end-all when it comes to dating/relationships.

I just mentioned his NBA career so far, I wager that most women would view him as “attractive,” which I will touch on a little later, and he’s one of the most recognized players in the world, on and off the court. He seems to have everything some think the average woman looks for in a man; he apparently checks all those boxes, so what’s the problem? 

When I saw the thumbnails of her images from her interview, I noticed a slight change in her figure. She was kind of chubby and I haven’t seen that look from her, ever. It’s not something that some workout sessions couldn’t fix, however, while I personally still think she’s an attractive woman, at the same time, she’s not going to get any younger and I view this as her gradually “hitting the wall.”

Meanwhile, taking into consideration what I said about Steph earlier, the world he has been thrust into because of his career, make no mistake, this man probably gets engulfed with not just any type of woman, but choice women. Women who would be considered “dimes” to most men. He’s garnering more attention while she’s reaching a period in her life where guys will start looking away.

While I understand it's female nature to crave attention-- most will do anything to get it, and this situation seems to be no exception-- this brings me back to my take on marriage. The more I'm seeing the apparent "true nature" of most of these females nowadays, it's also starting to change my take on relationships, in general.

You have this man out here busting his ass night in and night out, not only fulfilling a life-long dream, but I'm sure supporting his family is a huge part of why he's doing what he's doing as well. Still, you have ungrateful broads like this crying about wanting attention-- from other men, no less. Not from Steph, from other men.

I look at stuff like this and I think: If this is the way most of these women think and operate, why the fuck would I want to get into a long-term relationship with them, nevertheless, marriage? You have people out here who try to brow-beat or pressure you into marriage. Why? For what reason? I've been on the fence about marriage for a long time, and stuff like this is making me leery about long-term relationships as well because if nothing else, I definitely wanted that in terms of dating/relationships.

Before I go further, let me make this perfectly clear: I'm NOT saying that I will have no dealings with women period, far from it. Of course I seek and desire female companionship in general, but looking at what's unfolding before me, I'm just calculating my steps and recalibrating in terms of how I want to go about dealing with them. Another thing: I hate to say this, but stuff like this at least somewhat justifies "players". This is right up their alley.

Why commit to a long-term relationship or marriage when you have stuff like this taking place? I mean, whether it was intentional or not, she put the man on blast, projecting this notion that he's less than a man or what he's doing is (obviously) not enough. Run that marriage thing by me again? I should get married for what reason, now?

As far as this "female's true nature" narrative goes, along with seeing some of this stuff for myself, I've been hearing guys talk more and more about how most of these women really operate. It reminds me of a saying: when people show you who they are, believe them.

Would You Date or Marry a "Church" Woman?

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I was listening to a livestream about three weeks ago, and the subject came up about dealing with a "church" woman. Some of the observations that were discussed moved me to expand on those talking points. Before I begin, let me say that I'm NOT saying that I wouldn't date women who come from these environments, however, this is my outlook of the upside and downside of dating this type of woman.

The upside, at least on the surface, of dating/marrying a "church" woman is they have a mind to live right and separate themselves from the worldly women in terms of lifestyle. They tend to have a better grasp of the concept and structure of family.

The catch-22 to this-- and this will take me into the downside of dealing with them-- is there's a percentage of them who are closet freaks, and are worse than the ones walking around damn near naked. For some them, the dresses, skirts, headwraps, etc., are merely a fashion statement. They're trying to appear one way when they're actually the opposite. This is the reason why I say, "at least on the surface."

The downside of dating or being married to them is that they tend to be mindfucked parrots. She's like a verbal plagiarist. I mean, damn near word-for-word. Regardless of what you say, ask or do, she repeats what her pastor said. Everything out of her hot damn mouth is something her pastor said. I understand the concept of a pastor's position of authority, and showing them proper honor, I get that. However, they do this so much to where you wonder if they have a mind of their own or do they ever think for themselves.

If you're married to one, it becomes a form of cuckoldry. He apparently runs your relationship, marriage and household. She has more respect and regard for him than she does for her husband-- aside from the no-good husbands, I'm not referring to them. She shouldn't marry a guy like that anyway.

It gets to the point where you're like, "Fuck off. Go screw your pastor, then-- if you're not doing that already." They can have just as much attitude as the women in the streets. Like I said, the only thing that separates some of them are the dress codes.

While there can be some pros to being in a relationship with a "church" woman, the cons are infuriating to deal with. Obviously, there are exceptions to what I've described. I don't think all of them are that way, but too many of them are that way. Not saying that I want an atheist or a "devil," but you also have to be careful when choosing to deal with religious women.