Don't Kill the "Messenger"

Last week, someone who referred to him or herself as the “messenger,” left three posts concerning the debauchery going on at that shithole called The Way of Yah Synagogue between Sunday and Monday in a group chat, which I had no idea my number was still in the group chat.

Everything the individual stated in those posts relates to everything I’ve been saying about that chrome head shine Tony Smith and his mindfucked followers. I wasn’t sure if the person was someone was who there before me, was there while I was there, or if they became a member after me, so I sought to find out who the person was. I made the mistake of contacting the “messenger,” basically stating that I was a former member, and I can relate to everything that was said in the posts.

The person replied with question marks, which told me this person is a fucking idiot. I don’t how or where I confused this person or what was so hard to understand about what I said. If the question marks implied he or she didn’t know who I was, the person could’ve just said so, and I would’ve identified myself.

Actually, most of what was posted was told to me by other former members. There were only three things in those posts that I wasn’t aware of. Like I said, whoever this “messenger” is, is a fucking idiot, however, I thank him or her for the ammunition, so to speak, nonetheless.

When People Show You Who They Are, Believe Them

 

I was debating whether or not I wanted to write about this, but there was an situation that occured late last year, and it was on my mind for a while, but then I was able to move on from it. Then the thoughts reoccured recently and started to linger again, so I decided to speak on it. As you see the title, from my understanding, Maya  Angelou has been credited for making this statement, and not to say that she didn't, but I first heard this from a YouTuber around 2017 who said his father would advice him of this when he was growing up.

Paraphrasing, he said his father would say something along the lines of, "When people show you who they are, believe them. Don't let me rationalize or explain it away. When people show you who they are, believe them, and you deal with them accordingly." As far as I'm concerned, no truer words could've been spoken, and this leads to the topic of this post. Before I begin, the reason you see this image is because I always thought that the person I'm going to mention in this post looked like Touche Turtle.

I'm going to go into more detail, but it seems to me that this little bitch got in his feelings because of a suggestion I made regarding his daughter. The 2-foot-3 motherfucker took it as if I was telling him what to do or how to handle things with his daughter, and that wasn't what I was doing. This situation reminds me of how petty most "Black" people tend to be, and had I known this individual was going to react the way he did, I never would've said anything to him.

Over the summer, I caught up with Forrest Craig, a former member of that shithole called the The Way of Yah Synagogue that we used to attend. He was one of the few I was cool with when I was there. He treated with me respect and vice versa. He didn't treat me like a clown, a joke, or as if I were beneath him, like most of those primates did, particularly their arrogant, sexually suspect leader, so I acknowledged when he reached out to me. Apparently, he left in 2019, which was a year after I was removed. Long story short, he briefly expressed why he left and never looked back via email, and the next day we had a phone conversation talking about our frustrations concerning our experiences with that place.

He told me that his wife, left six months after he did, however, his daughter decided to stay. Needless to say, he and his wife feel a certain way about that, which I can’t say that I blame them, but she is an adult, so that’s her decision. In August, he mentioned something about his daughter still being there again, and I made a suggestion.

I suggested that he let her be, and that she will see the light and come around eventually--hopefully sooner than later. I sensed that he took exception to my suggestion because almost immediately after I gave my reason why I made that suggestion, he got off the phone with me. I contacted him twice the following week, the second time was a test to see if he would respond. If he didn’t respond, which he didn’t, I would leave him alone, which I did. This was around mid-August. I haven't heard from him since, and I didn't expect to.

I also noticed that he unfriended me on Facebook recently, which was inevitable. I usually don't check my Friends list, but for some reason, I had an inclination to check it yesterday, and that's when I saw it. That's cool. I'm not the type to go out of my way to make friends, and I damn sure won't go out of my way to keep them. When people do stuff like that, my thought is, Fuck you and goodbye. 

A small part of me is tickled by this because it's so petty, most of me is floored because I'm thinking, What the hell? It was just a fucking suggestion, and I told him that upfront before I made the suggestion, so there would be no misunderstanding. Did we have a heated discussion or shouting/cursing match? No. Did I insult him or say something disparaging about his family? No.

None of this occurred, but he chose to shun me off over a suggestion. It wasn’t a direct or subliminal command, because I do understand that some people will make a "suggestion," but it's actually a low-key command, but that wasn't what I was doing. I wasn’t standing over his shoulders telling him how to handle things with his daughter, although apparently that's the way ol' Touche took it.

I wouldn't do that to other people because I know what it's like to have that done to me. I had to block and remove someone I knew for a few years on Facebook about two months prior to this nonsense because she decided to assert herself in my situation acting like my parent, standing over my shoulders, lecturing me, and telling me how to handle things, and she had to go. I wasn't having that, regardless of the intent, but that's a topic for another entry.

Some might look at this as hypocritical that I blocked and removed her for her "advice," but here's the difference: as I already mentioned, she stood over my shoulders, lecturing me, and telling me how to handle things. She was following me in my DMs with the bullshit, leaving long ass messages that I just skimmed through. I didn't do any of this concerning him. As I've said before, I made a suggestion, then I told him why I was making that suggestion--nothing more, nothing less.

I know some people might say that I'm not parent, so it probably wasn't my place to say anything. That's fine. You could make that argument, but that's why I didn't come at it from that perspective, it wouldn't have made sense to do that. I came from the perspective of being the son of parents and having siblings-- a perspective where we both could relate.

In other words, whether it was experiencing or witnessing how our siblings dealt with our parents' advice, I learned that in most cases, the more you try to get people to see things your way, the more they're going to resist, and you wind up alienating them, even that's not your intent. On side note, an exception would be if the person is involved in some illegal/criminal activity, I understand the parent(s) asserting themselves in the situation, but otherwise, people are adults, you have to learn to back off at some point.

Anyway, this is what I told him: if you try to get her to see things your way, chances are, you're going to wind up alienating her. I called myself looking out for him; I didn't want to see him in a situation or potentially in a situation where he ended up estranged from her. It was not a lecture; I was stating why I was making that suggestion.

I'll admit, it's more of a theory than anything, but the reasons why I think this is the case is because, for example, although he continues to follow the religion that we came out of,  I mentioned to him that I no longer follow religion, and he continued to speak to me. I know in most cases, something like this can divide people. It wasn't until I made that suggestion, that he decided to give me the cold shoulder. No, he didn't say it flat-out, it was the non-verbal communication that I caught.

It kind of trips me out because it was just a suggestion, in other words, something to think over or consider. He didn't have to take a damn thing I said. That's not my daughter. As long as he's not abusing her or anything like that, I don't give a fuck what he does. This also reminded me that there are some who will take exception to people making suggestions--I've seen this on and offline.

Between my experiences before and during the Way of Yah, and stuff like this are reasons why I don't fool with a lot of people and prefer to keep my circle small. A part of my policy is I don’t run behind people, and I don’t want to be bothered with someone who doesn’t want to be bothered with me, I don’t care who it is. If he’s that petty, fickle, and bitch made to shun me off over a fucking suggestion, then I don’t need to fool with him anyway. I left him alone, and he doesn't have to worry about me contacting him again. I'm moving forward; I don't have time for people and their foolishness.

People enter and leave your life for a reason. In some cases, people will re-enter your life, and it reminds me that in a lot of cases, it's best to leave the past in the past. The one thing I did learn from being at TWOY is not getting too attached to people, and one of the many things I've learned in life is when people show you who they are, who they really are, believe them and deal with them accordingly.

 

Vaccination Slap

You know, I keep saying that I'm going to leave this TWOY Synagogue foolishness alone because there are some things I want to save for the book (i.e. addressing more situations and people), but I seem to keep getting more ammo about this clown, who I will mention momentarily, and that bullshit organization he's running. Some info I received I will save for the book, but I couldn't save this one.

A couple of days ago, someone brought to my attention a video that he briefly watched by Henry "Tony" Smith, a dictating, megalomaniac cunt whose congregation I once was--and happily no longer--a member of, and stuff like this is one of the reasons why.

Apparently, he asked his members if they received the vaccination shot that has been pushed hard by the media for over a year to supposedly combat the Covid-19 (AKA Corona Virus) that went rampant last year. I'm paraphrasing, but he basically tells them they can get it, but he will slap the piss out of them if they do. When I heard about this, one of my thoughts was, Same ol' controlling bitch ass.

Now, personally, I'm skeptical of the vaccination thing myself, however, I think that's up to that individual whether or not they decide to get it. These people are adults, and they're allowing this man control and paternalize them. It was stuff like this that I started to notice about him my last few years there, and thinking back, I said this once before, and I'll say it again: it was best I go. For the most part, I have a free-will approach, and he's controlling, so it was only a matter of time before we were at odds.

What I heard is sad, pathetic, and (kind of) funny at the same time. What's worse is despite everything, these people still sit there. Stuff like this is why I'm glad he got rid of me. On a side note, I heard he has been puffing marijuana in there, too. Perhaps it's "medical," but I can't stand any type of smoke, whether it's cigarettes, cigars, weed/marijuana, etc. The more stuff I hear, the more I'm glad to no longer be there. As far as the vaccination goes, I think it's free will, or at least it should be. I don't support forcing people to get it, but I also don't support someone dictating whether or not someone should get it.

I see nothing's changed but the weather in there. I thank him for getting rid of me. I couldn't thank him enough for that. My anger stems from how I was treated when I was there. So with that being that said, it leads me to something that I want to say to him, and this won't be my last time saying this: Thank you...fuck you, but thank you at the same time.

Be Your Own Hero/Savior

Green Lantern (John Stewart). DC Comics.

Although this is a post I drafted last year, a blog I posted on Medium inspired me to finish this one. I view this as more of a strong, insightful recap/commentary. For those are in the religious community, this won't be what you're used to, but open your mind and hear me out. Also, I realize people are entitled to believe what they want, this is my take on things.

All of our lives we have been taught and programmed to look to other people--specifically people in authority--or "higher powers" to lead and guide us to better, more abundant lives. This is particularly for people in my ethnicity. For a long time, I've been saying we have this "everyone is searching for a hero" mentality.

All it takes is for this individual to have "swag," and some strong, smooth speech, especially if he or she's speaking on the social ills we deal with in society, and we fall asleep. A lot of these Pro-Blacks, Black Conscious folks and definitely these preachers-- don't get me started with them-- are hip to this, and they use it to their advantage.

Most of them don't care about you. They're all about money at the end of the day. Being a content creator (writer) myself, I realize that it takes money to make a lot of things happen, nor should everything be for free, however, what does buying a DVD talking about history or ancient Egypt or a five-part teaching series on how to please "God" have to do with your current situation?

Really sit down and think about it: all of your service, praising and worship, what has all of that gotten you? I can't tell anyone what to do, who to follow or listen to, so this is a suggestion for others, but it's a new path and daily aspiration for me: instead of looking up or to others, try looking in the mirror and within. What you're seeking from outside sources is already within you.

BLM and ALM: True in Theory, but Dishonest in Motives

From Ashton Kutcher's Twitter Page.

This Twitter post sums up beautifully why I think the reasoning behind All Lives Matter is bullshit. Mind you, this post is from a white dude, and I think his analogy is on point. However, I have a problem with BLM as well, and I will address why I don't support either of them.

This post will be somewhat of a preview of what I will cover in an upcoming book. While this book will tackle mainly my take on religion and particularly my experience in a religious organization, I will also talk about these topics in side commentaries.

For the past several years, Black Lives Matter has been in the forefront of protesting a lot controversial deaths of "black" people, then (in my opinion) All Lives Matter was created and used to counter them. Now, in theory, I agree with both. "Black" lives matter, and all lives should matter, however, I think both are disingenuous in their intentions.

When I first heard of BLM in the early 2010s, I can't say that I was a supporter, but I had no problem with them until I find out they were actually an LGBT group using the plight and misfortune of "blacks" to promote their own agenda, which I think they're still doing til this day. They're like an organizational version of Colin Kaepernick, who used our plight for his own agenda and catapulted himself back into the spotlight.

Think about it: To give you some quick examples, after he got his book deal and Nike endorsement, you barely heard a peep out of him since then, and the same stuff has been going during and after he took his "stance". They don't care about us; they're out for themselves.

As for All Lives Matter, again, in theory I agree, all lives should matter, that's the way it should be, but take a look at the world around you. They know as well as I do that's not the situation. I think this concept was used as a deflection/silencing tactic to counter "blacks" (so-called black people in general, not BLM) saying that their lives matter. It's only a problem when we speak out on it. I don't remember this "All Lives Matter" stuff when Asians and/or Hispanics experience injustice and speak out. Most non-blacks will hardly experience what we have experienced for generations…and counting.

You have people who care more about a darn flag than someone's life, but I'm supposed to believe that you genuinely think All Lives Matter? FOH. Most won't say verbatim - not publicly, anyway - the aforementioned, but you can tell by their reactions and responses concerning these situations. Kneel for the flag, and they're on their period, but apparently it's no problem kneeling on a man's neck.

Speaking of George Floyd, there are some gumps - most of them are "black" - bringing up that he had criminal records and he did pornography, etc. but what did that have to do with the officer(s) using excessive force when he was already apprehended and in a defenseless position? That argument makes no sense to me.

Was he a "god" or a saint? No, but I don't recall anyone saying he was.
One more thing before I go. Since this George Floyd incident, we're now seeing statues and monuments of highly esteemed people of this country's past being taken down, people changing the names of their band or team. Well, the statues being taken down started around 2017, but it's happening now more than ever.

Here's my thing. People can take down statues, change laws, the name of their band or team all they want, that's not going to change what's in the minds and hearts of most of these people (i.e. white society). That hateful, God-complex mentality is a taught/programmed and learned behavior that has been ingrained in them for generations, it's not going to go away just like that.

That type of change is something they will have to do - individually and collectively.

You Didn't Dodge a Bullet, You Dodged a Missile, Part II

Demar Dotson.

I've mentioned before that I don't plan on doing many more posts on my experience in that shit hole called The Way of Yah Synagogue, and this post could be the one that leads to me writing a book regarding my experience in religion. There's only so many posts one can write about one subject. In my case, a book is a lot easier than putting out a bunch of blogs, and it's something I've been contemplating for a while.

I won't reveal the name of the book or when it will be released, but everything in the book will cover the things that I've talked about in my blogs concerning my experience in religion, particularly my experience at The Way of Yah Shitagogue, plus I will go more in-depth with some situations that took place.

Now, I didn't plan on doing a part two for this, but something came to mind the other night that I forgot about. I remember their "pastor" Henry Smith saying how he has all of these celebrities/athletes who watch him, as a matter of fact, one of his former members played in the NFL-- who will remain nameless-- and I remember one particular athlete who came through during one of the, as they used to call it,  "feast days" for a visit.

His is name Demar Dotson. He recently played offensive tackle for the Tampa Bay Buccaneers in the NFL. Demar, perhaps you didn't see me the week you visited, but you had on an all-black attire the night I saw you, and if you ever come across this post, I'm going to tell you the same thing I told the young man in my previous post: You didn't miss anything. You didn't miss shit. If anything, not only did you dodge a bullet, you dodged a missile.

You will be well received at first, well, being an NFL athlete, you probably would've been treated with more esteem, but in general, they will receive you as one of their own, make you feel as if they're closer than a family, then as time goes on, you will eventually see the masks fall off and find out that this "man of the Most High" is an arrogant, self-righteous, sadistic prick, and most of his members are a bunch of grimey, backstabbing bastards.

Some might say, "You're just mad because you got put out." Uh-uh. On the contrary. My anger comes from how I was treated. In retrospect, I'm glad he booted me off the plantation. They can have it. I don't have to worry about following those goofy rules and restrictions, and I don't have to sit through countless hours of hearing fairy tales from a book, followed by countless hours of pointless, bullshit meetings. To whoever my "replacement" is, I say to you, better you than me.

Overall, you did yourself a huge favor by not joining them. You saved yourself time, years and money. I wish I would've done the same. I made a huge mistake getting involved with those monkeys, but I've learned from it, and I will keep moving forward.

Preaching to the Choir: Part Four: The Yes-Men

Sgt. Proctor (left) from the movie Police Academy. Big-time Yes-Men doing his boss' bidding.

Following up on the last post when I talked about the preacher's parrots, yes, a "parrot" in this case can be a man as well, but it's usually a woman. With that being said, here's the male version of the groveling and blind devotion. Not justifying it, but in some cases, it's done out of survival. They've been spellbound by the fear of committing this "cardinal sin" if they cross the man of whatever entity they serve put in leadership, so they put up with being belittled and verbal abuse disguised as "correction" or "jokes."

It reminds of my people back when slavery and racism was more overt. Despite the fucked up, demeaning way, to say the least, they were being treated by whitey, most of them put on a smile and accepted it out of survival, out of the fear of losing what little positions they had or even losing their lives. I don't co-sign them accepting being blatantly disrespected and mistreated-- again, to say the least-- but for the most part, that's the way it was at that particular time. Most of them endured it out of survival.

In some cases, I think that was the situation in the synagogue-- more like a shitagogue-- where I came from. Again, not justifying it, but I think some people endured or are still enduring it out of survival, out of the fear of not wanting to "cross the boss," and wind up "going to hell." However, a lot of them are natural butt kissers.

I remember there was another former member who referred to this megalomaniac's ministers as "yes men." Well, I can definitely say that for two of them. It was three ministers when I was there, I don't know if any have been added or decreased since then. The older guy was cool, but I know that bonbon head prick of a leader runs a hive-minded organization, so I know how that goes.

One a side note, the geechee, one of his ministers, was the one who low-key kickstarted the lie that I don't speak to people. This was followed by the blatant lie told by their "pastor." Then tiger paws-- I guess he still have that bullshit in his head-- the associate or assistant pastor, last I checked, did a sermon the following night, commenting on the slick: "If you don't speak to people, then you don't need to be here," perpetuating the lie told by his massa. He put it out there in general, but I knew he was talking about me.

The crazy part is, I spoke to those yes men, but because of the lie their massa told, his punk ass turned around and said what he said. That bugged-eyed bastard would berate and lambaste them, and they would just crawl back behind his ass like good ol' yes men. It was really bad with the male members of the congregation. One guy said he would take a bullet for that piece of shit. Wow. Really? Lol.

Another side note: Speaking of which, if his "prophesy" or whatever term he uses for it is true about someone in the congregation setting him up to be taken out-- which I think is bullshit; nobody's thinking about that bitch, he's just trying to make himself seem more important than he is-- whatever he gets he deserves.

Anyway, now that I'm thinking about it, some of the guys are just as bad as the women, doing any and everything to vie for their pastor's attention. I've seen dudes back-door, undercut and throw other dudes under the bus to try and score brownie points with their pastor. I've experienced and witnessed this.

I guess their "leader" was correct after all. He is "building men"...Yes-Men. People really need to be careful following Henry Smith and the many self-righteous cunts like him. All of the butt kissing and blind devotion shows that you will follow these jokers anywhere, as long as they put enough conviction behind what they're saying. Be careful because you could be following them off a cliff. I say that figuratively, but hey, you never know. There was the Guyana incident.

As a matter of fact, last I checked, Henry was talking about how eventually they will have to go back to what most know as Jerusalem. I don't know if he's still on that bullshit but I would definitely be leery. The more I think about it, the more I'm glad to be out of there and away from those arrogant, cut-throat folks. It wasn't all of them, but there were way too many of them.

In conclusion, aside from getting some things off my chest, one of the purposes of this series is because I know I'm not the only one who has experienced and/or witnessed these things in these religious organizations. Better yet, let's call most of them what they are, especially The Way of Yah: a shit hole.

I know there are people out who can relate to my experiences and have dealt with or are still dealing with the nonsense that goes on in these organizations. My next post isn't a part of the series, but to me, it will serve as a powerful, insightful conclusion.

Preaching to the Choir: Part Three: The Preacher's Parrots

Photo Credit: Roi Dimor on Unsplash.

I had no intention of writing a part three to this series, but here we go. I briefly touched on this subject in a post in July called, Would You Date or Marry a Church Woman? By "church" I mean a religious woman. On a side note, I should've used an image of former wrestling star Koko B. Ware and his parrot, Frank. That would've been a more accurate description.

This is not to say women from other ethnicities don't do this, but this is prevalent in "black" society. Any brother, whether he is or has been in a religious organization or not, has experienced this when dealing with religious women. When it comes to these preachers, these sisters tend to have a blind, undying devotion to them. Truth is, they tend to enable each other. He co-signs her foolishness and vice versa.

Anything that self-righteous prick says, she repeats it, almost on cue. Fellas, think about the last time you had a discussion, argument or debate with a woman you are/were dating or married to. At some point in the conversation, her response is typically going to start with something like this: "Preacher said this," "Pastor said that." It won't always start with that phrase literally, but if you're attending or attended the same congregation as she is, and you've paid attention to the pastor's rhetoric, you will realize all she did was merely repeat what he said. I had an experience like that, which I will touch on a little bit.

They're like verbal plagiarists. Regardless of what that man says, he could dead wrong, but he says with enough conviction, she will go along with-- and repeat it, sounding like naive, misguided children. It's as if she's his personal parrot or something. By the way, you don't have to date or be married to them to witness this, which brings me to the situation I referred to in the above paragraph.

The last religious organization I came from, I had a conversation with one of the women there. I asked her what she looks for in a man. Aside from the cliches they tend to quote to look like a "good person," she went on to tell me what she (claims) to look for in a man. I'm not sure if she thought I wasn't paying attention to anything that doofus said, but her response to me was the very thing I heard him to tell the women in there what they should for or expect from a man. I mean darn near word for word.

This happened about two years ago with this Grimace looking broad in the same congregation. Different conversation, same result. Being like-minded with someone is one thing, but merely repeating someone's talking points is something totally different, and religious women (BW mainly) do this so much I wonder, "Bitch, do you have a mind of your own?" "Do you ever think for yourself?"

Going back to mesmerizing of the masses by preachers I mentioned in Part Two, there's a saying that goes: "If someone can get in your mind, they can get in your ass." I'll make a slight adjustment and say if one's not careful, they can get in your ass, although I get the meaning behind the statement. Ironically, I heard that doofus preacher mentioned once when courting women, you have to get in their mind first.

I reverted to that statement to say this: not many are a bigger epitome of that saying than these preachers. They've been in the minds and eventually the asses of women for a long time-- and counting. If you decide to date or marry one of them, perhaps you should invest in a cage and some crackers.

Preaching to the Choir: Part Two: The Biggest Sorcerers Ever?

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I sound like a broken record at this point, but I'll say it again: after being in religion and religious organizations for over 20 years, I understand why a lot of people lose faith and walk away from the whole thing altogether or never dealt with it in the first place. A lot of people have lost confidence in religion, particularly pastors, and as I've mentioned in a previous post, for a long time, I've been skeptical of most pastors, but after my last experience in a congregation, my skepticism of them has seriously increased.

The second of my two-part series, this is my presentation based on my what I've witnessed and heard considering these "spiritual leaders." These men are typically held in high regard by most, particularly their congregation. These men claim that they have been sent by the Most High, that they heard from TMH Himself, which is interesting. I'm not talking about all pastors but I am talking about most of them.

It's funny because most religious sects speak out against sorcery, but I think pastors/preachers may be the greatest sorcerers ever. The have the ability to mesmerize, play with the members' emotional heart strings, and downright mindfuck them into believing anything if they're convincing enough. I think they're part of the reason why we have pussified and passive responses (i.e. "forgiving" people who we-- collectively-- have no business forgiving) which I briefly alluded to this in this post.

It has been no secret about these preachers who have robbed the members and have slept with members other than their wives. It's usually the female members, who are typically dressed as if they're in a club. In some cases, it's other men or even doing inappropriate things with children. There can be concrete evidence against this man-- in this case, "man" meaning preachers in general-- yet, people will still defend and support him.

They have the ability to turn people against you. For example, they will project that you are a certain way. What this does in return is create a pre-conceived notion that at least 90 percent of the members will agree with and will usually approach you based on that perception versus finding out for themselves.

I had one who actually made me look like a villain in meeting over my preference of how I wanted to be addressed. That had to be the biggest pile of bullshit ever. It's my fucking name, and he's going to try to dictate how he addresses me? Nah, dude. Anyway, after the meeting, this half-breed bitch gave me a nasty look due to this "pastor" villainizing me.

Part of it is out of fear that they're somehow going against him, and is committing sin at that point. Then there's the dickheads who already don't like you and will side with him just because. There are a few who will understand what you're dealing with or where you're coming from, but they will tell you on the side later. They won't say it front of the group, usually out of that same fear.

The same cunt later told a blatant fucking lie on me, and those (mostly) negroes knew what he was saying was completely untrue, and they sat there and went right along with it. One dumb ass bitch had the audacity to repeat that bullshit in a phone conversation. What really got me was she was one of the people who knew that wasn't true, but like the mindfiucked, cut-throat heifer she was, went along with it.

Part of their witchcraft is convincing people that they heard from the "Most High," "Lord," or whatever title you want to use. Certain things that they say will come to pass, and it will look as if they have this esteemed connection with this great entity, which will invoke fear in many and usually too much respect from many.

Truthfully, it's a matter of experience in regards to knowing, dealing with and reading people, pattern recognition, processing that information, and making a call from there based on how well you know that person and their tendencies. They haven't heard shit from anybody; it's a coincidental scare tactic at best.

In conclusion, I find it quite interesting...and ironic...and hypocritical that they will preach fervently against magic, witchcraft, sorcery-- whatever you want to call it, it's all the same thing-- but then when they step to the pulpit or front of the congregation, it seems they say "Arbra Cadabra" as soon as they open their mouths.

Preaching to the Choir: Part One: The Cause of their Arrogance

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I caught wind of Angel Snupnup's YouTube channel in mid-2019. I have been watching his videos more frequently lately, and one of the things that caught my attention about his channel-- then and now-- is his unique takes on life, society and particularly religion. By "unique" I mean while he has a serious, realist approach, he has a way of delivering his points that I find hilarious, especially when it comes to religion.

I started having questions and making different observations concerning religion/religious organizations prior to listening to his channel, plus I'm in the process of unlearning a lot of things I thought to be true, so I already had similar thoughts in terms of some of the things he's putting out there.

Now, I will admit that I'm the "spiritual but not religious" type, and he speaks against that, too, which is fine. I respect his position. While my theory is that there is a Universal Creator, I don't think there's any way this stuff (e.g. nature) just appeared from nowhere, however, I don't believe that people will die and come back as cows and so on. For me, it's based more on the individual development and enlightenment than anything. Besides, I don't try to enforce my convictions on anyone, anyway. I just do my thing and keep going.

By individual development and enlightenment, I'll use meditation as an example. I meditate for the purposes of calmness, focus and relaxation, not to give praise and worship.

Today, I saw a video that inspired this blog post. The video's entitled: Why did God Give Us Life? In his analysis, he talked about the arrogance of this "God" to make people worship and serve him, or else you will be punished and he will send you to hell when it's all said and done. There's other topics he discussed, such as the silliness of people praising and worshipping something that's invisible, and they're prayers are never answered, but I'm focusing on the "arrogant" part for a particular reason.

In previous videos, he has described this entity as a bully, mostly due to the reasons as described above, and also due to his thoughts of why this "God" doesn't come at the devil the way he does others. As I was listening to the video, it made me think perhaps that's why a lot of these preachers are so god damn arrogant and conceited. Perhaps, they get it from their "god" or whatever entity they worship.

I've seen preachers-- that bitch ass at the The Way of Yah, in particular-- who would use the book (or Bible) to manipulate and bully people, and justify their actions. He can talk crazy to you, but if you say something to him-- now you've done it! You've crossed the man of the "Most High." Now, there's a serve punishment you have to face. All of that bullshit is scare tactics, and to keep you at bay when they come at you sideways.

They can treat you and talk to you anyway they please, but want to command and demand all of this god damn respect. They spend half the sermon bragging, ego tripping and putting people on blast they disagree with. They're megalomaniacs and prima donnas; they're so focused on dress, appearance and how they and others look, it's comparable to women.

Hypothetically, let's say what Angel Snupnup is saying is 100 percent true. In that case, I've found the cause of these preachers' arrogance. Like the saying that a child gets their behavior from their parent(s), apparently, they get it from whatever entity they worship.

This is part one of this two-part series. Next, I'm going to talk about despite preachers' crusade against sorcery, they seem to be strange bedfellows.

The Unmitigated Gall

Heading into 2020, there's a few things concerning my experience at that so-called synagogue that I want to get off my chest. I planned on writing this months ago, but they were other matters that came up. As I mentioned in my "Poking the Bear" post, I want to address what made me start to gradually look at their "leader" Henry differently in 2015. Looking back, I realize this dude is a feminine ass bitch, masking in masculinity.

It started with a brother's meeting that year. Henry was asking some of the brothers about marriage. Speaking of which, that's another reason I'm glad to no longer be there, he was one of those negroes trying to brow beat and pressure people into getting married, but then in the same breath, tell them not to rush into a marriage. Go figure.

Anyway, marriage is not anything I'm interested in right now. I'm on the fence at best about that subject, so shaming tactics such as claiming one's trying to avoid responsibility-- which one fake, four-eyed bitch was quick to repeat; she repeated everything that nigger said-- or whatever other goofy shit was not going to change my mind.

Then the subject of what we look for in a woman came up. Long story short, I simply said what I look for a woman is someone who is attractive inwardly and on the outside, I NEVER SAID she had to be a beauty queen. Somehow, I wasn't "being practical" according to him. Till this day, I don't see where I was being impractical. Anyone in their right mind would want someone with a balance of (at least) decent looks and good inner characteristics. I have no problem with a woman who would expect the same from me, and move on if she didn't see that, but the negro was implying that I was being one-sided. No, I wasn't, dumb shit.

He then goes in on my looks. This wasn't the first time he did that, and to me, a man judging another man's looks, especially in the same manner as a woman is highly suspect. Why the fuck he was so concerned about my looks was beyond me. Then he points out a dude in the meeting, saying this guy can get a "beautiful woman." Very wise. This man's supposed to be a preacher, but he's doing instigating bullshit like this.

I figured the dude he singled out would view himself as better at that point. He was empty-headed enough to do it; I can tell because his attitude towards me changed after that meeting. Besides, even if he can get an attractive woman, I doubt if he could keep her. That dude had the IQ of fertilizer.

Then I was asked to name a woman that I find attractive. Looking back, I realized it was a paradox trap; in other words, regardless of what answer I gave, it would've been the wrong answer. However, when people are asked this question, they usually will use a celebrity as a mere example, which is what I simply did. Most people will not mention someone they know personally. This motherfucker took what I said to imply that I wanted this celebrity-- I won't mention her name-- or someone of that caliber, and dragged me for three fucking years about that shit like a messy bitch.

During this feast, I had a few conversations with a woman who makes Lizzo look like Jessica Alba. One thing I've learned about "black" people is that collectively, they're very childish and petty, and a lot of these yardbirds were no different. Just because a man is having a conversation with a woman doesn't mean he's interested in a fucking relationship.

Knowing that I was dealing with mostly childish people, and the fact that this woman was desperate for a relationship, I started keeping my distance but to no avail, because my concerns came to pass. Next thing I knew, I'm getting text messages such as one from a loud mouth coon about her being my woman. I had to correct him on that. He tells me, "You heard what preacher said." No motherfucker, you heard what I said, that's not my woman. I never co-signed that shit.

I figured this bitch was going to try to use Henry's position to trap me into something with her, and she proved me right.She thought she was smarter than me, and she viewed me as weak, which she wasn't the only one but I have way more resolve than people think. I saw her bullshit coming a mile away, and there was no way that shit was going to happen.

One would think that common logic and sense would tell someone if they have to go through that subterfuge to try to get someone, you don't need that person, nor should you want a relationship with that person, but oh well.

When I set the record straight that wasn't the case, I prepared for the inevitable. I know the negro, and whenever they call themselves hooking you up with someone or low-key trying to force someone on you, and you refuse, here comes the shaming language, and Henry didn't disappoint. Like a typical negro, he goes in on my looks (again) during a single's meeting on October of that year.

As I've said before, I saw this coming and I braced myself. This bitch nigger got mad because I refused to take someone he called himself picking for me, when I never asked to be with her in the first fucking place, that was his bright ass idea. He took it upon himself to do that goofy shit. Of course, this would be denied, but I know that's what it was because I had folded and took the chocolate covered Jabba the Hut, it wouldn't have been none of that bullshit.

This told me a lot about what he thought of me and the type of person he really is. He could hurl vitriol and call me ugly all he wants, I still wasn't taking that motherfucker! It was my way of telling him "fuck you" without actually telling him that. I also think part of it was to get a laugh. Try to get me to "take one for the team," launch personal attacks when I refuse, then throw the whole ordeal in my face later, making jokes about the shit.

By the way, Henry, you'll eat a chair before I get an attractive woman? Get the seasoning salt, motherfucker. You don't know me as well as you think you do. You don't know what woman I can or can't get. You made the same mistake most dumb fucks make, and that's look at me and assume stuff.

This also expands into the so-called black community. Somehow, regardless how the woman looks, her size, her attitude or her personality, she can have the pick of the litter and it's okay for her to have standards, but it's a problem when brothers have standards. He's supposed to take whoever he can get, otherwise, be subjected to shaming language. Oh well, I guess we have a problem, then. This ridiculous, hypocritical shit is expected by most sisters in our race, but you have some of these male negroes doing the same thing.

This brings me to the picture in this post. I won't mention the broad's name, but the image should give one an idea of her name. A year later, some of the brothers and sisters had a meaningless discussion by the sound system in the sanctuary. This Shrek looking broad goes on a disgruntled rant, talking about brothers who didn't want the wildebeest I mentioned, then talks about how brothers don't have this and that, but they want this and that. Typical shaming language. Some brothers have to hear about what they have or don't have because they don't want somebody. Fuck you, bitch! You and anybody who's on that bullshit.

Then she uses one dude and whoever those "few" were to try to piss on the other brothers. I'm looking at this cunt, thinking: "Whether I was Warren Buffet or someone on the streets, I still wouldn't look your way." It's usually warth hogs like her who looks like that and have the nerve to talk shit.

IMO: What Do Women Want?

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This post was drafted 6/6/2019. I originally wrote it for a Men's website designed for brothers that I was trying to become a writer for, but I never heard back from the individual. He told me he read it, and I've never heard anything from him since concerning whether or not I was accepted as a writer for the website, so after a while, I took it as a no and kept moving. Anyway, I decided to post it here on my social commentary blog. I've meaning to do this for months, but other projects I was working on pushed it back.

What do women want? What do women really want? These are one of the topics that has been up for debate on and off YouTube for years, aside from the most recently Cold Approach vs. Choosing Signals. Well, I think the latter mostly debated on YouTube. Anyway, part of what inspired me to talk about this was a video I saw on YouTube recently where three models— whose names I remember, but I’m keeping them nameless— were being interviewed.

From my experience of communicating with women, and from what I’ve witnessed, I’ve come to the conclusion that collectively, they don’t know what the hell they want, and I’m learning to take a lot of what they say with a grain of salt because they tend to be contradictive.

Their thoughts and emotions fluctuate from second-to-second. They could want clean-cut one day, then a man with a more rugged appearance the next, then someone more “nerdy with an edge” the following day. Strawberry ice cream one second, chocolate ice cream a fraction of a second later.
This takes me back to the interview. Quick side note: I’m paraphrasing what was said; this is not word-for-word.

The question was asked what they look for or find attractive in a man. The first woman, who I thought looked decent and had a nice body, from what I saw, stated that she wanted a god-fearing man, one who will treat her right, has respect, and is respectable. When I heard this, my immediate thought was, “She’s full of shit.”

The second woman said something along the lines of having good energy, and how you tend to be who you attract. She mentioned the guy having a sense of humor. She said that she’s not into “players,” but she has dated and is attracted to athletes— guys who tend to be players and womanizers. Wait. What? You see what I mean?

The third woman was asked a different question. I thought she was the best looking one and I thought her answers were more sensible in comparison to the first two. She was asked about the guys who complain about women that go for the complete opposite of who they claim they don’t want, meanwhile, they don’t have a criminal background, make decent-to-good money, have their own place, yet these women still go for the opposite.

She responded that she has heard about the chicanery on both sides and believes that there’s truth on both ends. I thought that was a bit of a deflection on her end, but I agree with the statement in and of itself. Well, as I heard a YouTuber say, “Two things can be right at the same time,” and I think this is one of those rare cases. She admitted that she has witnessed women who go for the “bad boys,” citing their reason is because they want someone more “edgy.” There was a lot more discussed in the video, but I wanted to touch on the more direct questions in the beginning.


Off the bat, there are a few traits, one specifically, that a woman will say she’s looking for or find attractive in a man that I believe. The first (and specific) is confidence. I typically hear this as part of their criteria; they don’t want a weak, cowardly, spineless man, and I don’t blame them for that.

The second is assertion. I’ve heard some say that they want a man who’s assertive or not afraid to assert himself but isn’t overly masculine. For the most part, I believe that. As a bonus, I’ll throw in sense of humor. This is another one I often hear from women. You can usually get along very well with a woman if you’re witty and have a sense of humor. Not overly silly but being able to make her laugh, having good comedic timing.

The rest of it as such “god-fearing,” “treating them right,” and being “respectful,” for the most part, is said because it sounds good and it makes them look like a “good person.” It impresses those who don’t know any better. When I’ve asked women what they look for, they typically rattle off the same bullshit, and most of it I don’t believe. What they say they want and what they actually get tend to be two totally different things.

We're Quick to Forgive Everyone...Except Each Other

I smell...PUSSY! This scene makes me sick! I'm only using it as a visual aid.

Before I begin, let me say this is not in reference all of the people in the demographics I'm referring to. I don't know everyone in every gender or race to generalize, nor do I think that's right or fair. Which is funny because people put us in the same box all the time, however, unlike them I believe in being fair and balanced.

I happened to look on my YouTube feed and I saw a thumbnail of Brandt Jean, the brother of Botham Jean, hugging former Dallas police officer Amber Guyger, who was convicted today of murdering Botham in an incident that took place last year.

Before a verdict was sentenced, I said whoever in Botham’s family was in attendance was going to forgive her. And, like clockwork, the picture you see above. I knew this would happen because I negroes just like I know white folks. The problem I have with this putrid scene is how quick we (collectively) are to forgive them but refuse to forgive each other.

Now, I understand some things are unforgivable, but it's funny how we're quick to have forgiveness and mercy for people whom the majority don't give a fuck about us, but if one of our own comes at us or offends us, we hate them for life. Which makes me think: this bitch murdered your brother in cold blood, and you're hugging her in forgiveness? You are fucking serious?! Boy, I'll tell ya, they really mind fucked us with this Christianity/non-violent bullshit, which I think is part of the problem.

It’s funny because we’re talking about a society of dark-hearted, soulless people who continue to blatantly disrespect, kick negroes in the ass every chance they get, use bully tactics (e.g. that stand for the flag or get released bullshit) and for some reason, when it comes to negroes, all is forgiven. This is mind boggling to me.

My question is, where is this forgiveness and mercy when it comes our own? These people don’t give a fuck if you love or forgive them or not, but we (collectively) just love them to death regardless of what they do our people.

Now, some might read my previous post (Poking the Bear) and say I’m being hypocritical, because the people I was referring to are mostly so-called blacks, but I stated in that very post that since I wasn’t given the opportunity to tell my side of the situation, I decided to use my platform to do so. It wasn’t a matter of holding a grudge.

Do I want to deal with them again? No, because I don’t want to deal with anyone, whatever gender or race, who is not going to show me any respect. Forgiving is one thing, forgetting is another. Again, I don’t hate them, I just don’t want to deal with them anymore.

Anyway, two things I get from this is how “blacks” are unmerciful, unforgiving, and not to mention hypocritical we are towards each other, and seem to have this unconditional love for whites and others. Which reminds me of a recent incident where a white dude who was being bullied at school for wearing the same clothes or not having enough clothing, these negroes took the time to help him out. Nothing wrong with that, but my thing is they wouldn’t do that for their brother or sister who might’ve been lacking and in need.

They would’ve continued to mock, tease and bully him or her. I hate to sound like whitey, but you fucking niggers make me sick. Looking at this pathetic picture above, I’m not sure which one is the bigger piece of shit: Amber or Brandt. While I don't believe our race/society as a whole is finished-- I don't have that defeated mindset some my people have-- unfortunately, I think it's more than less. I wonder if there's another of race out there other than the ones that are known. If so, I'm signing on as a free-agent.

In a lot of areas, I think we need to start over. We need to breed a new and better generation(s) with integrity and a backbone, and discard the riff raff and these weak, subservient pussies.

The Hypocrisy of One-Sided People

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A repost from 6/17/2019.

People are something else. They're a trip, they really are. They really have some shit with them. Of course, I'm speaking collectively, this obviously isn't the case with every person I know or have met. Duh! However, there's a percentage of people who are one-sided, and I think the percentage is high.

On a side note, in terms of race, I won't say it's a "black" or white thing. In this particular case, I say it's a tie because I've seen this cheeky ass shit from both sides. It's pretty much people who apparently can treat you however they want to treat you. They can come at you sideways, disrespect you, make crass or sly remarks, sometimes passing them off as "jokes," but they have an underlying meaning, and apparently you're supposed to just accept it. You're supposed to like it and love it.

They even have luxury (somehow) of shoveling all of the blame on you if you have problem with the way they're coming at you. It's always you, it's never them. Regardless of how they come at you, some way, somehow, it's your fault. They will invent ways to shift the blame you usually by moving the goalposts, playing semantics, gaslighting, etc.

They can make jokes or "jokes," drag your name through the mud, and don't give a damn if they offend you or not, if they're disparaging your name/character or not. You're supposed to take it and smile; be a good sport, that is, until you do something that they find offensive.

They can do it to you, and it's okay, it's justified, but the moment you respond or someone says or does something they don't like, the game changes. Now people pissed off, hurt, in their feelings, want to fight, etc., and I find this one-sided and two-faced. I don't know what planet some people are living on, but they need to come the fuck off it. You throw dirt, people are going to throw dirt back. Don't dish it out if you can't take it.

You have people who expect you to respect and accept them for who they are, but won't show you that same courtesy. They will tell you they are who they are, like it or not, but want you to change, and on top of that, will try to change you more to their liking. I'm sick of one-sided people and their bullshit.

I was going to mention this thing where women can have standards but guys should take whoever they can get. You're supposed to make all these changes and jump through hoops to get them but accept them for they who are, however, I've decided to stay on this particular side of the one-sided narrative. I mean, a guy who goes for that is foolish, I'm just pointing out the hypocrisy. By the way, I know there are guys who like this too, and they're just as hypocritical, but from my observation I see this more when it comes to women.

Anyway, I haven't been told this too often, but I've heard this at least twice in my life something along the lines of I have problem with people or I can't get along with people. I disagree; for the most part, I get along well with people, but it's very difficult to get along with people who are one-sided.

Repost: Success is the Best Revenge

Kawhi Leonard holding the Bill Russell (Finals MVP) trophy. Photo courtesy of AP News.

Reposted from 6/23/2019.

Nearly two weeks ago, the Toronto Raptors beat the Golden State Warriors, winning their first ever NBA championship, shocking the world in the process. The Raptors were led by two-time Defensive Player of the Year Kawhi Leonard, one of, if not the best two-way player-- a guy who excels offensively and defensively-- in the league.

His journey to get there wasn't easy. Prior to last season, he had internal issues with his team at the time, the San Antonio Spurs, where he won his first championship and Finals MVP. It was said that he was injured, then news broke out that there was a rift between him and Spurs Gregg Popovich, among other typically messy media narratives.

During that summer, after much speculation about where Kawhi was headed, he was traded to the Raptors in a four-player deal, including a first round pick. Then there was talk that Kawhi didn't want to play there and would possibly sit out the season. This led to a lot of harsh criticism from the media and fans alike. They were nitpicking; criticizing him for stupid shit such as him being more quiet and laid-back, versus more stylish or enthusiastic, making what I thought was slanderous accusations about him being arrogant and then there's the big spectacle that was made over his unique laugh.

After agreeing to a one-year deal with the Raptors, he led them to a 58-24 record, the second seed in the East and the second best record overall. During the postseason they defeated the Orlando Magic, Philadelphia 76ers and the Milwaukee Bucks en route to their first NBA Finals appearance where they defeated the Warriors for their first title.

He won the Finals MVP for the second time in his career and became the first player in NBA history to win a championship for an Eastern and Western Conference team. I said all of that to bring me to the title of this post. Going back a couple of paragraphs, the way people dogged and dragged him prior to the season, whether it was the accusations or the viral videos on his laugh, there were some things that came to mind.

While I have to admit, there's one particular video caricature of him that I thought was funny, and I didn't think there was any harm intended, generally, stuff like that could can create this distorted image as if he's slow or retarded or something. I think people like Kawhi are just misunderstood, and I know that feeling all too well.

People tend to oppose someone or something they don't understand. Instead of trying to gain an understanding, they attack, usually through shit tests and other petty, sadistic actions. You don't talk or act a certain way, so they start doing sucker stuff to alienate and ostracize that person. They make up stuff about the person, and whether it's a joke or a "joke," it can still create an effect that can cause people to come at the individual in a disrespectful manner.

I use the story of his season as a reminder to use people and their bullshit as stepping stones. They laughed at him, mocked and criticized him, now Kawhi has the last laugh. Success is the best revenge.

Repost: Ballin' For Attention: My Take on the Ayesha Curry Interview

Ayesha Curry. Photo by Edmondson/ USA Today Sports Images.

 Reposted from 5/9/19.

During a recent interview, Ayesha Curry expressed— I’m paraphrasing here— that she’s not getting enough attention from men these days. Well, she got what she wanted. Apparently, she’s been getting verbally lit up on social media and I know for a fact several brothers have made YouTube videos concerning this matter because every time I go to my YT page, I see a thumbnail for a video covering the story.

Mind you, she’s the wife of Stephen Curry, an NBA superstar with multiple NBA championships and is considered one of the best players in the league, so I have to admit, this puts a hole in the argument of men who says it’s all about MLS (Money, Looks and Status) when trying to get a woman. Granted, these things are a factor, but they're not the be-all, end-all when it comes to dating/relationships.

I just mentioned his NBA career so far, I wager that most women would view him as “attractive,” which I will touch on a little later, and he’s one of the most recognized players in the world, on and off the court. He seems to have everything some think the average woman looks for in a man; he apparently checks all those boxes, so what’s the problem? 

When I saw the thumbnails of her images from her interview, I noticed a slight change in her figure. She was kind of chubby and I haven’t seen that look from her, ever. It’s not something that some workout sessions couldn’t fix, however, while I personally still think she’s an attractive woman, at the same time, she’s not going to get any younger and I view this as her gradually “hitting the wall.”

Meanwhile, taking into consideration what I said about Steph earlier, the world he has been thrust into because of his career, make no mistake, this man probably gets engulfed with not just any type of woman, but choice women. Women who would be considered “dimes” to most men. He’s garnering more attention while she’s reaching a period in her life where guys will start looking away.

While I understand it's female nature to crave attention-- most will do anything to get it, and this situation seems to be no exception-- this brings me back to my take on marriage. The more I'm seeing the apparent "true nature" of most of these females nowadays, it's also starting to change my take on relationships, in general.

You have this man out here busting his ass night in and night out, not only fulfilling a life-long dream, but I'm sure supporting his family is a huge part of why he's doing what he's doing as well. Still, you have ungrateful broads like this crying about wanting attention-- from other men, no less. Not from Steph, from other men.

I look at stuff like this and I think: If this is the way most of these women think and operate, why the fuck would I want to get into a long-term relationship with them, nevertheless, marriage? You have people out here who try to brow-beat or pressure you into marriage. Why? For what reason? I've been on the fence about marriage for a long time, and stuff like this is making me leery about long-term relationships as well because if nothing else, I definitely wanted that in terms of dating/relationships.

Before I go further, let me make this perfectly clear: I'm NOT saying that I will have no dealings with women period, far from it. Of course I seek and desire female companionship in general, but looking at what's unfolding before me, I'm just calculating my steps and recalibrating in terms of how I want to go about dealing with them. Another thing: I hate to say this, but stuff like this at least somewhat justifies "players". This is right up their alley.

Why commit to a long-term relationship or marriage when you have stuff like this taking place? I mean, whether it was intentional or not, she put the man on blast, projecting this notion that he's less than a man or what he's doing is (obviously) not enough. Run that marriage thing by me again? I should get married for what reason, now?

As far as this "female's true nature" narrative goes, along with seeing some of this stuff for myself, I've been hearing guys talk more and more about how most of these women really operate. It reminds me of a saying: when people show you who they are, believe them.

Would You Date or Marry a "Church" Woman?

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I was listening to a livestream about three weeks ago, and the subject came up about dealing with a "church" woman. Some of the observations that were discussed moved me to expand on those talking points. Before I begin, let me say that I'm NOT saying that I wouldn't date women who come from these environments, however, this is my outlook of the upside and downside of dating this type of woman.

The upside, at least on the surface, of dating/marrying a "church" woman is they have a mind to live right and separate themselves from the worldly women in terms of lifestyle. They tend to have a better grasp of the concept and structure of family.

The catch-22 to this-- and this will take me into the downside of dealing with them-- is there's a percentage of them who are closet freaks, and are worse than the ones walking around damn near naked. For some them, the dresses, skirts, headwraps, etc., are merely a fashion statement. They're trying to appear one way when they're actually the opposite. This is the reason why I say, "at least on the surface."

The downside of dating or being married to them is that they tend to be mindfucked parrots. She's like a verbal plagiarist. I mean, damn near word-for-word. Regardless of what you say, ask or do, she repeats what her pastor said. Everything out of her hot damn mouth is something her pastor said. I understand the concept of a pastor's position of authority, and showing them proper honor, I get that. However, they do this so much to where you wonder if they have a mind of their own or do they ever think for themselves.

If you're married to one, it becomes a form of cuckoldry. He apparently runs your relationship, marriage and household. She has more respect and regard for him than she does for her husband-- aside from the no-good husbands, I'm not referring to them. She shouldn't marry a guy like that anyway.

It gets to the point where you're like, "Fuck off. Go screw your pastor, then-- if you're not doing that already." They can have just as much attitude as the women in the streets. Like I said, the only thing that separates some of them are the dress codes.

While there can be some pros to being in a relationship with a "church" woman, the cons are infuriating to deal with. Obviously, there are exceptions to what I've described. I don't think all of them are that way, but too many of them are that way. Not saying that I want an atheist or a "devil," but you also have to be careful when choosing to deal with religious women.

"Everything Happens For a Reason": My Take

The other day I listened to a short video with someone giving his take on the expression "everything happens for a reason." To paraphrase, he went on to state while he acknowledges that it's a statement that makes us all comfortable, it's nonsense and it robs you of personal power. I respect someone who is willing to go against the grain of society and have a difference of opinion or not quite see things the way others do-- which is usually in a blindly devoted way.

In other words, they don't simply repeat indoctrinated rhetoric or regurgitate something they have heard thousands of others say over the years, and it sounds good, so they say it, but rather, they choose to think for themselves. And not oppose something just to oppose it, but they can logically state why they view it the way they do.

The video was only about a minute long, but it intrigued me so much that I decided to weigh in on it. I wanted to let what I heard marinate before I commented, and I'll admit, I do think everything happens for a reason, and the reason why I think that is because as much as most people hate it, most things are beyond our control. Another reason would be that things simply don't just occur, there's a reason (or reasons) why that happened.

As far as it taking away from the trajectory of your personal power, well, it depends on how the person looks at it because some have an evolution or the human-beings-are-their-own-god way of thinking, and their theory could be based on that.

Quick side note: I am beginning to think that the saying "expect the unexpected" is nonsense, or at least easier said than done. While making preparations is great and resourceful, I'm definitely not against it, it's nearly impossible to be prepared for all the unpredictability life can throw at you. Anyway, while I understood where he was coming from, and I'll also admit that some people can say that punch drunk optimism, for the most part, I disagree.

Who knows? We live and learn-- or at least we should-- so my thought on this matter may change later on, but for now, I respectfully disagree.

J-Mo: A Night at the Grammys

Jennifer Lopez, February 2019 (Kevin Winter/Getty Images for The Recording Academy) 

I didn't watch the Grammys on Sunday night; I haven't watched an award show in years. I did see some headlines for it on my news feed. The first one that stuck out was this pussy power/feminist theme society is incessantly promoting. Now, I'm all for women getting opportunities and everything, but they're shoving this down our throats, and it's nauseating.

Now, for the main event. The second headline I kept seeing, and it's a hot topic in the "black" sector of YouTube, Jennifer Lopez (AKA J-Lo) performing songs of Motown legends. This a "duh" moment, but I'm going to break it down, anyway. You see, Lopez is a Hispanic woman, and Motown is known for their black musical legends such as Smokey Robinson, Stevie Wonder, Diana Ross, the Jackson Five and many others. So, from where most blacks sit, having her perform some of their songs, during Black History Month on top of that, was insulting.

This apparently has the "black" sector of social media in an outrage; some calling the notion a racist fraud, some blaming black people for allowing this to happen. For some reason, I don't know why, but this the whole thing tickles me.

There's a part of me that understands why they would consider this a slap to the face.What gets me is, when I looked read the article and saw the screenshots of tweets of detractors, I'm paraphrasing, but I saw things such as: "They couldn't get Gladys Knight, Jennifer Hudson, Ashanti, etc.?" Well, I don't know about the others, but I'm sure Gladys was recovering from singing the white folks' flag song the week before. So hey, why not J-Lo? Maybe she was the only one willing to do it.

After all, most of you like to take people from other nations and crown them "black" (e.g. Bill Clinton). I mean, I've heard some people say that she has a black woman's ass, so I guess they (the producers) figured you all wouldn't mind. Trust me, I'm not defending J-Lo. I'm looking at this from an objective-- and sarcastic, I'll admit-- view.

Speaking of which, another thing that to mind is, since black folks love Eminem so much, would they have had a problem if the Grammys honored Big Daddy Kane or Rakim, and they brought him in to rap some of their songs? Personally, I wouldn't want to see or hear that, I think that would be disgusting, Black History Month or not, but I'm pointing out the flip-flop here.

I say if the person have the vocal gifts, do your thing. I like Whitney's version of I Will Always Love You much better than Dolly's. This is where I would've been offended more than anything had I watched. I was never a fan of J-Lo's singing; honestly, I can't think of too many Hispanic women whose singing voice I enjoy. It's ironic because I love to hear them speak, but I can't stand to hear a lot of them sing. If they were going to get someone Hispanic, they could've asked Christina Aguilera, who's half-Ecuadorian. She's one of the few, in my opinion, who has vocal talent.

With all of that being said, while I don't have a problem with nations working with and learning from other nations, I also don't think it's wise to show and tell everybody everything-- that was one of the things that led to the downfall of the "Aztecs"-- which "blacks" have a bad habit of doing. That, and being intoxicated with wanting to be lovey dovey and bond with people-- like ol' Gladys, I read her response to her critics for her singing white folks' flag song-- whom the majority couldn't give two f*cks about them. That's a subject for another blog.

This is my take of the whole situation. I don't know, maybe someone could offer a perspective I'm not considering that night even move me to take this post down-- the latter being highly doubtful. If you feel a certain way about other nations invading your culture among other things, do a better job of protecting and honoring what yours.

The Black Female Employee Stink Face

Before I get started, let me say that this is not a reference to all black female employees, so spare me with that "don't generalize" bullshit. However, from my personal experience, particularly at Wal-Mart-- not that it doesn't happen anywhere else, but it's mainly Wal-Mart-- nearly every time I go in there, I run into one of these broads, usually a cashier, for whatever reason, giving me a stink look.

Regardless of what I'm doing, one of these heifers will just give me a shitty look, as if I'm walking around with an onion in my pants or something. I don't know what their problem is, it can't be hygiene because I'm big on taking of my personal hygiene. Anyway, when I see that look, I'm thinking: "You have no idea how badly I want to punch you in your freaking face." This type is also in the category (along with these hard-on patriotic flag folks and a few others) that if I had The Force...well, I'll just leave it at that. Anyone who is familiar with Star Wars knows what I'm talking about.

That brings me to the subject of this blog.The other day, I was at the Wal-Mart on Government Street and I was returning a pillowtop airbed that I accidentally damaged, trying to see if I could switch it for another one. Before I go further, to be fair, I realize that employees who work in customer service have to deal with a lot of crap-- trust me, I've worked with them before. They usually have to deal with nasty attitudes and people who are trying to get over, but that's not the case with everybody.

When I was explaining to this woman that I had a hole in the airbed, granted, she didn't get the loud mouth and typical sassy head/neck rotating and start cursing, but she still gave me that stink face and that crappy body language. I'm sure a lot of people have seen it; they shift their weight to one side and give you the most shitty look ever. Obviously, she didn't believe me and thought I was trying to get over.

Recognizing this, I thought perhaps what I said didn't come out right, so let me put it another way. Once I did that, including informing her that I was accidentally the cause of it, the bitch still had that stink look, staring at the receipt. Finally I guess maybe the other woman who was nearby was a supervisor or something, asked me if I wanted to switch it out for another one, which is exactly I wanted.

*Sigh* Long story short, and looking on the bright side of it, I was able to switch it out from there with no problems. On a side note, before leaving, because for a long time at Wal-Mart if you have an item that's not bagged, they usually have a door greeter to check your receipt. So, taking precaution, I asked this white security guard nearby if there was a door greeter around. This dickhead nonchalantly told me if I needed help I had to go customer service. SMH. I just went on about my business. I mean, that's where I went to when I first came in there, so obviously I knew where go in regards to that.

I forgot that Wal-Mart got rid of the door greeter position, it's been a long time since I've worked or shopped in there, and the attitudes of individuals like them is one of the reasons I do my darnedest to not go in there, and why I'm glad I no longer work there.